i dun feel the same way anymore.

oh yea...A Merry Christmas to all my fellow friends!!!! =)!!!! heheeee

my sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeTest fren did tis for me!!! i love you tOOOOO darlinG!!!
till the end of time...forever you and me =)

i love you too roda!!!

christmas dinner ahhhhh comin soon ahhhh...dun stress ahhhhhhhhhh heheee =) =) =)

working in the admin department bores me. i cant sit for more then 15 mins. once i place my lovely bum on the chair and start goin thru all the documents, little fairies twirl and fly above my head and sprinkle fairy dust which brings me to Far-away land and i doze off...

hahaaa but now, im given a task to transfer all the documents into each individual files of their own. so i unwrap new-smell-oh-so-good files, print out their names, month and year from this lovely machine...its cool!! the whole back-end room is for me to jump around and play with. like i mention b4. cupboard on wheels are called compactors rite?? when i can step on one and push myself so its like short ride on a skateboard. hahaaa...oh yea i almost got clamp yesterday. lucky i voice out "eh eh Waitttt......wait ah..." wahhh if i kena clamp how ah?? ahahaaaaa super funny lah..i see the whole rack moving towards me. oh yea, i fall on tuesday while daydreamin. ehheee at work, near the side door at my area. becoz of this stupid step towards the door. i didnt notice it. lucky for me, there was no camera and no one else there. i even graze my ankle. tsk tsk tsk...
and i doze off while still standin and staring at the longgggg list of names... the whole stack fall out of my hand...

fire drill at tis new bank. SUPer sway rite....i get to experience every banks' fire drill. this time, worse!! we are at the 15th floor. no lift...must take a long walk to asian civilisian museum to take attendance. and worse...no cute guys!!!!! unlike citibank...u seee them scattered everywhere. but working during all this sai kang stuff, make me daydream more. i think i have finally think abt my future and put in some realistic ideas into considerations. you guys might not agree with me, but this is what i really want to do. i jus hope when the time comes, i have enough capital , experience and good solid research to back me up! heheheee....10 years time. i hope!

oh dear God, pls give me this chance, make it happen! monday......yes or no....i want this so much! make it goooood!!!

thurs, went back with maaaad. wahlau wait for tis army boy ah, super the long lahhhh...hahaaa why?? coz he got stuck in the train. the north line mrt got problem. i saw tis cute chinese guy. okie enough...ahhaaa anyway...we wanted to go sch and climb but becoz it was late, we had to cancelled. poor taufiq...

after work, meet up with dear leong, ali, steven and gee fang. leong book out after 2 weeks. hahaaa...=) he hair super soft and cute lahhh....we dine at fish n co. N surprise surprise...dzul was there. cute n cool as ever...food was good...company good. the guys wanted to catch a movie but there weren't any seats. wanted to sit at coffee bean or starbucks. friday nite, n there were no seats...we proceed to macdonalds...

steven and his many gurlie problems. ahhaaa it was fun! we went separate ways coz steven wanted to go drinkin and see new gurls...forever lahh sleepy boy!...ali walk me home. we did pull ups at my playground. surprisingly i can do one...hahahaaa its been ages since i had the time to climb properly....*Hmmmpppphhhh* sorry huda! i woke up late and body was aching...legs too maybe becoz i climb down 15 storeys....hope u had fun kiez!!! nex wkend we go climbasia or sumting??? alritezzz...catch u sooN!

its too good to be true. must have been a fantasy....something unreal
"only i want...." waahahahaa tis is not my fantasy! thank you very much

too good to be true.after tat, another good thing happened! noting BIG, but obviously an improvement. i hope to see more of this in the future.

oreos........... or shud i say adios!!!

*deep sighs* rodaaaaaaaaaaaaa cant wait to update you!! nex time we meet password is doner kebab. i tink u will laugh ur ass off on tis one...i did tats y i fall at work... whahahaaa

its a saturday!! im stayin at home reading...frying pancakes, drinkin tea with milk by the bed as droplets of water splash against the small viewing window beside me. my lovely favourite weather...like Garbage always say.."im only happy when it rains"

Yesterday was my last day at Citibank. im goin to another bank on Monday. GOD pls grant my wish!!! i want a perm job. not jus any perm job. but tat ONE!!!! pray hard for me, i hope he/she reply. my lunch buddies, Meilan(sister of Mulan) and Angiela. we had nasi lemak at marina food loft. Guess wat! barbie pegasus and ken was lunching there too!! hahaaa...on the way back to the office, we took the lift and AHHHHHH cute guy alert! he totally charmed the 3 of us. we at 11th and he is from the 12th storey. trust me, im always the suayest, to come across superly cute guy on my last day there. once we got out, unsurprisingly we were tuning to the same channel. hahahaa...so am glad to meet ppl who i can share my "cute guys" watching sessions.

one day, i was on my way to the washroom, i saw tis guy sitting- must have been waiting for someone to come out n interview him. i went back in n told meilan. she then take a trip to the washroom. another fine day, on the way to lunch we(me n angiela) saw CUTE japanese guys. Tall, charming and *sighs with dreamy eyes* stride past us. anymore?? hahahaaa

oh yea and another fine day, a gurl got clamp in between 2 cupboards. whahhaa SUPER funny lahh...shes small size and like a little mouse. she was standin in between 2 cupboards checkin sum files. we have tis thing called a compacter, its a cupboard back to back placed side by side..on wheels. u can wheel it to be closer to the nex one so u can get files from the back of the cupboard tat u jus wheeled. save space but if theres 2 ppl who wan to take a file from opp direction its kinda difficult. hahaaa the person who wheel the thing didnt noe there was the 'mouse' inside. she was so quiet and she didnt lock the wheel. so she was clamped. she shouted OMG!! then ran out lookin rather pissed. hahaaaaaa i thot it was funny. i mean if it was me, i would have laugh it off...its my fault wat if i got clamped for nto lockin the wheel. righttttttt...

after lunch, we had a fire drill...bad news- climb down 11 storeys. good news- waste time and walk around at millenia walk. cute, bald, ang moh whom me n meilan always bump into at our floor. ended work a little late. oh yea finally, on my last day i came early. 830- on the dot. okie so it was on time...and not early. watever. meilan n angiela bought me Ritz biscuit, the one inside the tin. awwwww its sumting i really LIKE!! Cheese biscuit and the TIN! sooo sweet n lovely of them to get me tat!! i couldnt believe i jus met you and you guys are such dears...

waited for ms rodaaaaa and walk around at carrefour, tower records, salomon, nike. is tat how u spell salamon or salomon or i dunno? we are off to the Single's nite at eng wah cinema. the thing is- roda told me we gonna get dinner(buffet) and a movie for jus 5 bucks. when we came our names were not on the list. *n the audience goes "booooo"* so we left our names behind and went off for dinner. i was ravenous i feel i could eat a whole cow!! we ate at turkish cuisine. noting special though...u noe roda, i felt the doner roll was better then the doner. ahahaaa...dunno...donno...doner...rhyming riteeee

we ate and still no call. we came to a decision. no matter wat, we still goin to catch a movie. SO off we went to the other side of suntec again! but we bump into an auntie who was gettin a carebear umbrella. i ask how she got it. so she explained. "well gurl, u have to spent $150 in suntec and you dont get it for free you noe. you have to pay 3 dollars". then i replied "OH!! okie auntie thanks but i got no money to spent 150 here" (in my heart i was saying- maybe $1.50)

roda n me were abt to approach the ticket counter when i ask her shud we try one last time? she was already willin to give up but she didnt. tats wat i love abt her!! hahaaaa so she asked the person in charge. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH of course have lahhhhhhh. THANK GOODNESS man!! so we were late. so we thot we missed out on the fun. sooo.....oh no...WE DIDNT!!!!!! whahhaaa...

okie what did we do? like naughty little school gurls who were late for class (hey roda, tis is sooOOOooo US!! late for sch, late for work, late for watever) sneaked in at the back entrance. sumone was talkin softly on the microphone. OOhhhh she was talkin abt how and why ppl flirt. and how you should flirt n stuff. B-O-R-I-N-G. we took drinks, otah and started eating. scanning the room for any possibilities that there would be any attractive guys or gurls. NONE. nah ah...nano...NO! so we continued drinkin and eating and talkin abt other stuff. oohh we even took photos. hahaaaa


oh we head out b4 the speaker ended her so-called how-to-flirt session. ladies, n back to the room...everybody disappeared. oh yea we were in the VIP lounge. VIP lounge my asslahhhh...its more like hmmm a store rooom. hahaa okie im exagerrating. but it doesnt look vip to me. we took the goodie bag which was placed on the floor. inside was this magazine, a whole set of post-its and a can of pringles. there was alot of goodie bag left. so being KIASU, (a true-blue singaporean) i asked roda for permission first though. "roda shud we take another can? theres so many here" her reply "why not?" i mean isnt this the right thing to do?? it would just go to waste rite if we didnt take it... got our receipts and got POPCORN!!! pop pop pop...CHICKEN Little was the movie.

i wonder why a tiny cute little creature has such a big manly voice. hahaaaa but the whole show was fuNNy and cute and ahhhhh i jus love lookin at the orange 3-eyed thingy. after movie...took the train back. GUESS who we bumped into.. roda saw him thru the window when the train stopped at city hall. she was like stuttering and pointing "hmmm pa..pra...pra..prakash?" i was wondering who the hell is prakash. when we got in. it was sweet old parthiban!!!! aahahaaaa i will always remmeber tis sweet old man. same class for 4 years straight. n i even got a song for him. not gonna reveal it for the whole world to hear. he noes, i noes n so does roda. hahaaa roda even got the remix version of it. yea but mine's ORIGINAL!! remember tat roda. hahaaaa....we took a pic coz i brought my cam. soo noisy. 3 kids put together in an mrt...amazingly funny. ppl were lookin our way n smiling. i wonder why...do they noe we are old classmates who bump into each other? maybe. from our conversation soft enough for them to suspect so.n then HOME sweeeeeet HOME!!!was kinda late though...but everybody's asleep.

its a superlyyyyyyyyy long entry. i wanna talk so much but nobody wants to listen, so i type it here. hahaaa mum is too tired to talk to me. sis is always at work. dad asleep n bro is not in sight. Miss you too chubby boY! hahaaaa....from ur sweet little chubby sis! =)

I stopped asking, n you stop replying. i tried once twice many times to make it better, but instead i felt worst. i stop believing and now i realize ive lost the battle. a song tat no one can share the same feeling nor understand how i relate to it. but its been playing in my head the last couple of days...

So beautiful by Pete Murray

Found myself just the other day
In the backyard of a friends place,
Thinkin' about you,
Thinkin' of the crowd you're in,
What you up too where you been?
(Just thinkin')

And all the clothes that you wear,
And the colors in your hair
Shouldn't change you
Now you tell me why it's so
You bigger than mighty Joe,
(At lest you think so)

God my fingers burn,
Now when I think of touching your hair
You have changed so much that I don't know,
If I can call you and tell you I care
And I would love to bring you down,
Plant your feet back on the ground

Throw my smoke down on the ground,
Turn my head and I heard the sound,
(That reminded me)
Of the days so young and sweet
Always so much fun to meet
(At lest I thought so)

Now you think your so damn fine

You can rule the world no not mine,
I don't think so

God my fingers burn,
Now when I think of touching your hair
You have changed so much that I don't know,
If I can call you and tell you I care

Now the scene that you're in,
And the people that you been with
Just get to me,
But you think I'm not as cool,
As you are so beautiful
Well here you fling

Well I'm here to tell you babe
The game your in is just a game
So damn pretentious

God my fingers burn,
Now when I think of touching your hair
You have changed so much that I don't know,
If I can call you and tell you I care
And I would love to bring you down,
Plant your feet back on the ground

You think you're so beautiful
(So beautiful)

my brother must have been bored, he requested that i sing for him. so i sang TATU song-all abt us. then i told him, "abang, adik nak jadi lesbian ah...sooo COOL!! see tatu so cool!" he freaked!!
muaahahahaaa


i dreamt i died n u didnt care. or was it? u died n i didnt care??

and today i went out with my cousins. LUQMAN HAKIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!! you noe what? the satisfaction you get, the on-top-of-the-world feeling when u make a kid giggle and smile is so overwhelming!! amazingly cute!!! kids are wonderful. how i wish i could be a child forever...carefree and happy always...ahahahhaa

*aiyzz....*

haiiizzzz leong leong...is back from bangkok!

cant believe he's goin in tomorrow!! at 0915hrs, he will be goin to pasir ris interchange and from then on, the clock starts ticking..first startin with 3 mths of BMT...n then we will wonder where he go.

my movie-buddy, my Burger King partner, my "leong!! i wan tis song" msn-er, the guy who listens to most of my problems and tell me things i NEED to hear and not WANt to hear...didnt expect i will miss him until it hit on me that he wont be there to hear my many sad n happy stories, nobody to disturb now n then, ive no one to wait for at the times bookshop for almost half an hour, i can no longer go to the action figurine store at bugis and look at tiny figurines wich cost a bomb!! and "Only one -acoustic version" on a "feeling-sunday-afternoon-long-busride",

Mr Phua Sheng Leong!!!! hahahaaa back then in secondary school i thot he had some link with ms phua ( the maths teacher who chase him in class with the triangle ruler) i noe he wont be readin this. well....gonna miss you sweet old PAL!! bon voyage and till we meet in 2 weeks time!

one of my souvenir from Bangkok


and this, this is one of our dinner outing...tats ali, steven, me, you n jun....*sighhhh*

p.s its always hard to say goodbye......

saaDiaH
still 20.Libra.blue.
loves-.butterflies.collecting pretty notebooks.foreign films.fairies.kids.magic.chEEse fries.raisins.colourful envelopes.glitter.pinics.late night feast.


happiness everyday.more family gatherings.more climber's reunions.driving license.visit beautiful Turkey.travelling.holiday at lovely beaches.to further my studies.a house of my own.a miracle.



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