.::heads you live, tails you die::.

Saturday, May 28, 2005

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today at work was alrite. first day of sales for TSC. so ppl were goin quite crazy since we giving 15% storewide and taka members get additional 10%... i injured myself a couple of times today. an instance would be carrying the huge box of 8 arm chandelier out for that customer to take a look. while carrying the huge box from the small store door, my left pinky got stuck at the door. it hurts but its okie now. the day before, had to open up the HUGE HUGEEE gigantic heavy carpet. but the customer ended up not buying. work has been fun so far but tiring...

its going to be quite along weekend. sat n sun night shift arghhhhhhhhhhhhh....

him, i ve decided and made up my mind. theres really nothing i can do and its gone anyway. so yea saad, the time is up and ......tell me that its overrrrr

her, it jus saddens me that things have to go this way. not that i haven been warn by others . i feel that ive lost her. im losing her slowly day by day. DUN tell me that its overrrrr....

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Monday, May 23, 2005

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okeiz im back!!! whahaaaa...n im feeling normal!!

no longer blue nor sad...the peeps hav yet to reach singapore. i tink by tonite or wee hours of the morning, they will reach singapore safely!! cant wait to meet them tml!!

i wanna get tan! where can i get burned??? today work was quite fun! started the morning with good sales. took many pics with Yp coz today her last day of work. she was the one who interviewed me...got to work with her coz our shifts are the same and got to noe her more. she turn out to be a very fun, "exciting" outgoing gurl...ahahhaa we ate as fast as possible and went shopping during our breaks. i bought tis liquid eyeliner black and she bought brown. then dewi taught us how to use since night shift usually dun have much customer. well may u have a great future ahead of u ...

yesterday went cycling with my angels...well...supposed-ly we planned to go to east coast. but along the way. alia got into an "accident" with tis ASSHOLE ( jus like roda n alia call him). anyway tis asshole which was sum malay guy who look like sum idiotic foreign man was cycling listening to sumting and smsing at teh same time. i thot he saw us already. but he didnt...alia tried to avoid him but he cycled aimlessly and crash into alia...alia was thrown over to the grass patch n it turned out that her finger got pinched in btween hers n that asshole bike and alia's finger got tis deep cut which was quite scary looking.

i opened my timbuk2. n guess wat we found...tissues, plasters, nail clipper to cut the plaster to the desired shape. roda cooling water helped. instead of cyclists, we all turned into medics. wahhaaaa...well we decided to change out plans. cycled to bedok reservoir instead...had our picnic and cycled to the ocha paradise for bubble tea. well tat asshole sure did spoil our day but nevertheless i had great fun talkin to the gurls. wished the day turned out as wat we wanted.
cant wait for our nex cycling outing yeaaa....n to tat asshole, hope u get that retribution...fall into some big longkang or sumting

meet up with angela n gee fang after work jus now. we ate dinner and jus sat at starbucks n talk. okiez ive finally made up my mind. at least after talkin to angela, i guess i roughly noe wat i really wan and moving on is what i actually need. anwyay....angela look radiant with her new tan glow...n gee fang looks absolutely great too! ahhhh we are all growing.

then i tink abt the frens i made in life...who will stay in my life forever. the pact we made..the promises we promise each other. close sincere frens who will stay till the end. ppl whom i care for and ppl who care for me. its hard to say...coz many ppl cross our paths and make us change the way we look at life and at things. but wtever happens i noe my secondayr sch frens 2 clique....angela n gf n hui jun (missing today) and alia n roda.....will always be in my heart and may our frneship last eternally!!!!!

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as i wait patiently for my dearest frens to come back...

i reminise abt the past....then i realise time passes so fast...so fast that when im lost tinkin abt the past, the real "NOW" ppl have changed. changed in many different ways. maybe in their tinking, maybe in status, maybe in interest, maybe in so many other things. n goin thru the stuff the pictures we have and took together brought back so many memories. saad, its time to move on....

its good to noe how good and great the times u had before but time move on and so do u. right?
my heart is in pain, shattering, breaking, stuck ....tears balance at the entrance of my eye as i stop myself from being tooo emotional...

"I've been true right from the start
You're the owner of my heart

If you look straight in my eyes
You will know I'm not pretending
I don't hide, there's no disguise
Why you doubt me, that's a strange thing
I've been true right from the start
You're the owner of my heart

I can't stand by watching you walk away
Knowing you still belong with me
Close by my side
You think I don't care
But forever, I swear
Ooh, my love has grown stronger
And that I can't hide
I've been true right from the start
You're the owner of my heart "

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Tuesday, May 17, 2005

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yesternight was really the end for me. so much for being cautious. when u jus let it slip out of out ur mind and it happens. really make u regret like shit. but wat is done is done. u cant change it. i hope retribution will take its course. xiu i love, thanks for being there....if i was alone..i would have gone crazy i tink. i duno...wat we can only do is learnt from it. i avoid talkin abt it coz it brings me back to e scene. i cant pls...dun make me tink abt it. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...so much for being happy....

"dun laugh too hard, u will end up crying"
i hate to noe that it is in fact true. nevertheless i shall remain strong and i hope noting bad happens out of it. instead good things happen instead. thanks to YOU who was there too (u noe who u are). but as i lay to sleep, i tink abt it and it jus make me wonder n tink of crazy thots.

DAMN you!!!! being optimistic is good. i woke up abt 10 plus. i had nuggets, fries, fried fusili...wahhaaaa and i baked muffins. okiez so the muffins turn out real weird. tasteless bunch of little mini cakes. YUCK!!! ahhahaaa butttt i shall still bring it to climbing session later. u all better eat aH!! whahahaaaaa....

i slept at 2 plus again...dream so many dreams.....scary ones...funny ones and even strange ones...duno why...woke up n felt so lethargic. thruout my sleepin session, xiu sms me abt buying zinger burger n abt cancelling her order..crazy ahh tis gurl...
how ah.... my muffins really not ncie..shud have made brownie...nvm lah tml then make...

kiez ibetter clean up the mess i made n get ready for sch!!

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Sunday, May 15, 2005

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supeeeeeeeeeeeeeerrrrrrrrrrrrr irritating!!!

im going berserk....crazy...i duno why!! i ammm soOooo superly sure, that i have a problem with sumting. its always when i have a problem i start to eat and eat and eat....

ive been eating the whole day without stopping. i noe its unhealthy, i mean i dun really care if i get fat or watver but it jus bothers me. to noe that i actually have a problem with sumting and yet im not aware of it. wat is it that is causing me to eat n eat n eat....n i get craving for certain things too!! nooo im not pregnant. *CHOY* hahahaaaaaaaaa

for instance, today i had yakun toast for breakfast since i work morning shift. then lunch i had fried rice and green apple. then i went to cold storage n bought some stuff like CHEESEPOTATOChipssssss, brownie mix, lime soda n ...hmm wat else did i get....then i bought ice cream..those potong one...red bean for mum n yam for me.

took the mrt back....decided to drop by simei. went to ntuc...ahhhh im turnin to wat tat old man jus called me.. a makcik!!!!!!!!!!!! noOOoooooooo....

i had fun goin to supermarkets....reached home n i cooked fried spaghetti!! sooooOOoo yummy!!! ahhahaaa then i had chocolate muffin and vitasoy and maybe later, i could have some cheese chips...arghHHHHh confirm tml i canot climb! DAMN!!!!!

hwhahaaa....

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Saturday, May 14, 2005

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MaFia Party
okiez mafia party photos are finally out huh?? whahaaa okeiz enjoy....

me yana n azima

the gurls with an addition of some fella trying to be funny...our dearest maaad

the dearest seniors...ahhhhhhhhhh soooo beyOOoootifulll

with cumshot

with the gayboy

like everybody mention, my "brother"....dearest noor, ex captain

idris the "peeet pottt guy"

quite cool rite....ahahhaa actioooon only

love tis pic...

me n joop trying to act fierce??!! ahhh CMI but ohhh look at my dragonfly sooo sparkly

nyssa n me..on our way to school.

man n white

ooohhh crappy maaad

nyssaaa me n xiu!!!

....us....

the rose tattoo that all the seniors wore

step right up, step those ballooons ...GOOooooooOOO!!!!

the boys.......

the gurls........

ahhh my cheeeeee-se friessssssssss

the stefanos

look how she shine from within...TP babe 2005!!! *as the crowd roars n applauds*

nazib the cheeky spidey

us again....wahhaaaaa xiu nyssa n me

blackie blackieeeee

BEST Couple in TPSC!!!!

Nominated best couple in tpsc, but CMI...ahahahaaaa but i like tis photoooo soo candid riteeee

n here comes the real couple

nyssa with her tiara....BEST DRESSED award....hhahaaa

our white roses and peach flavoured candles, we, the seniors sing for you....

the seniors...dedicating a song..with black strumming the guitar

us again...whahahaa....yea...3 of us...frens forever thru thick n thin!!!

the senior guys doin their stuff...

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testing

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Friday, May 13, 2005

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BOY: I saw her today
GIRL: I saw him today

BOY: It seems like its been forever
GIRL: I wonder if he still cares

BOY: She looks better than before
GIRL: I couldn't stop staring at him

BOY: I asked her how things were going
GIRL: I asked about his new girlfriend

BOY: I'd choose her over any girl im with
GIRL: He's probablly really happy right now

BOY: I couldnt look at her without starting to cry
GIRL: He couldnt even look at me

BOY: I told her I miss her
GIRL: He doesnt mean it

BOY: I meant it
GIRL: He didnt mean it

BOY: I love her
GIRL: He loves his new girlfriend

BOY: I held her for the last time
GIRL: He gave me a friendly hug

BOY: Then I went home and cried
GIRL: Then I went home and cried

BOY: I lost her
GIRL: I still love him

a post i found on frenster. seemingly saddening, if it were to happen for real sure to be a heart breaking experience. huh? dun u agree yea but not for real...... hahahaaaa

WORK was fuN!!!!!! whahaaaa tiring though...this few days to come...arghhhh B shift means i go home late. trainin is even more tiring. after 2 whole day of off days, came back to work with a minor bit of rope burn and body aching-ness.

godiva promoter, i was walkin past the other day, wahhhhhhhhhhhhh soooo cute! whahhaaaaa..
hmmm wat else to update...

"i wonder if i take u home, would you still be in love baby...NoNoNooooo dun * with my heart..."

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Monday, May 09, 2005

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have been working the past few days..i miss climbing soooOOoo much!
oh yea to the guys who are already at krabi. i hope u guys are having fun there!! come back asap...i tink i miss u guys already.... =(

tml im goin climbign! yahoOOOOo ooOohhh i miss climbing sooo much!! must must must! whahhaaa work is good ...ahhaha my shoe is soo slippery, i keep sliding n almost falling a few times. so paiseh...aiyOH! learning new things eveyrday...ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

oh yea jus sumting i was goin thru while lookin at pics. lyrics to the hokkien song.
thanks to karen, for translating them for me. with some changes made to it, to make it more like a story than the song direct translation.

I don’t dare to think about my life without you inside it,

How do I live my life now

the Cold wind is not as cold as your heart

How can you ruin me

Loving you, my heart gets scared

Thinking of you, my heart is in pain

But I can’t put away my love for you

I see you loving others just like the time you used to love me

How can I not be heart broken. . . .

p.s sumtimes, i feel that i finally understand how it feels to be rejected without even trying. i noe im losing BIG time coz i nvr try...but sumhow i guess its for the good for me. it is... isnt it? but life goes on, n many others hav stepped n walked past my path. lets jus pray for the better..... =) i shall miss *greatly*....

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Saturday, May 07, 2005

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MAFIA PARTY 2005

so it was a blast!! so it was incredible...pictures will be up soon.
sorry but i just canot accept the fact tat i will be leaving you guys. dun worry i will come back to climb..meet u guys...i wan TO soooooooooooo VEYR muchhh

jus tat i duno wat will happen in the future. its too early to say anyting. i miss you all veyr much! am starting to miss you guys already. sumting jus left my heart that nite...i love you all....!!! you guys has been the greatest..

pics up soon whne im free!! nietzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

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