i failed my stupid idiotic nafa test. thanks to running! i hate running! running sucks yet ppl still liek to run. i dun understand. arghh.. FULL STOP

Stupid FIT ppl who made us run and still dare to claim that it was some sort of warm up without even warning us first. yealah yealah...no point complaining when its over. But!!! *sigh* all my hard work goes down the drain jus coz i failed my running!

trainin in sch...with my coughing..aiyz! i feel so troubled lately. so many things stressing me up for nothing. So am glad SIP report and entrepreneur report is out of the way. Celebrate Xiu's bdae on sunday at Seah Street Deli. from there we went to esplanade n home. projects are ON! switch ON full mode, i cant afford to fall sick. its all up up up n awaaaayy. I lost my Global student kit. feel so lost without it. aiyz..i also dunno where i place it. all my notes inside.

Rockmaster tis sat. after my entrepreneur lecture. dun tink im goin to make it. Just gonna have fun i guess. With the other strong n scary opponents im goin to face, whahaaa...my socks shoot out straight from my feet. It's gonna be held at Clarke Quay. Its gonna be scary...whahahaaa...guess i shouldnt tink too much rite. yea...kie off to research again!

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhHHhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!

p.s the climbers are having day camp at climb adventure n yishun, me in sch...:( happy camping u guys!

-picnic by the beach-

a wonderful day...a great saturday to begin with. I woke up, got ready and went out for lunch with my brother. ate at banquet, then we go "marketing" at NTUC. reached home n start cooking. supposely to meet hui jun at 5...but extended to 530 coz i wasnt ready.

anyway, the trip there was great. meeting her was great. we decided to go to the beach to relax, have a peaceful fabulous mini-trip. away from this busy world, away from all the troubles and problems. it was sunny since it was only abt 6. the sun shining and the wind was just sumting different from the weather we usually get at sch or anywhere else.

In our shadows...

i cooked macaroni and she brought her famous "avocado milk". the chats we had, the stupid things we did...whahaaa we had CRUNCH chocolate for dessert. reminising the days we had back in secondary sch. where we played with mac donald's chocolate fudge. we placed the chocolate on our front teeth, so it looks like as though we dun have any teeth at all...whahaaa but today we used crunch chocolate wich was a color lighter. took a pic wich i wont post coz ...whahahaa...

the macaroni & avocado milk

walk by the beach...btw there was tis realllly reallllllllllly cute little kid..who stood like a metre away from us. he/she was sooo incredibly cute!!! keep smiling n laughing at us. cheerful careful look....arghhhh... we walk around then decided to have some snacks at the fisherman village. had calamari's n wedges. Thanks JUN for the treat!!! the ambience there was incredibly. Absolutely brilliant! why? well become we were sitting at the corner, sooo near the sea, the sky was filled with stars, the sea breeze was strong thus making us feeel cold. bump into kian haw, kok zhong....n 2 more lysians. seems like the whole day was sooo coincidentally about loyang. we talk abt the past, our present life...n not forgetting our future. like i mention before...im so glad i contact my lovely frens. ppl i meet during my secondary sch days. these ppl noe me much much more...experience days n moments together.

the cheeky gurlie herself...

the view tat took my breathe away...

yours truly with jun's avocado milk

feels like we are on a holiday..see the small teeeeny moon?

flying with my hands

us

...wOOooooo kissy kissY...

lost in our little world. anybody notice anything??

oooOoohhh the nitez approaching, remind me of werewolves with such shapely tree branches and the mooon...

last but not leassst, my little betty boop!!! * muacks muacks*

played at the playground, climb the spiderweb...after tat we make our way home. had a wonderful though it was a short outing. think im falling sick. keep sneezing and having a sore throat. its 2 alrady...tink i better head to sleep. n off this comp of mine...tink its gonna get sick too..nononoooooo...will start on my research n stuff tml. with a clear head.... nietz ppl...

p.s to those i love....i jus wan u to be reminded that i love you!!!

so much for their happy ending....

i guess its true. Jennifer n Brad Pitt just prove that happy endings dun last forever. when will my happy ending even walk past me? but then, rite now i am living a life of fun n i shud appreciate it. But like they always say, the grass is greener on the other side.

i had the greatest wkend meeting up with ppl i luv!! catching up with latest gossips and all. You know, when you manage to keep in contact with ur old frens, it just makes you feel like you accomplish something. I mean, well its too early to say it but i hope this continues even when we are all separated and start working or maybe even go overseas for further education.

In my life, now, i start to have dreams. Dreams that i wish to accomplish in the future. i didnt have those dreams before. Till i went to my grandaunt house during hari raya. She asked me, what were my dreams. it then struck me, why i dun have dreams? i mean i do...i do have dreams, bits n pieces of them everywhere. I dun have a whole picture put together.

Successful is one of them. But to all individual being, they perceive "successful" in different lights and meaning. Mine might not be the same as yours. Im glad to say ive a plan for the future. It may not work or goes as i plan. changes and all will occur. But at least i have a plan. They say, winners plan and losers give excuses. I want to be a winner.

friday- went out with my dearest nyssa!!! ehhehee shOPPing=retail therapy! i LIKEE!!! soo much.. whats with shopping and gurls...i dunno they just link together
u noe this is the greatest time to go shopping. bought pants from mng. cant find any basic tees.
nyssa bought tops from polo, zara & lots of books. i bought books too! the summerhouse. as recommended by my dear angela! coz i noe im goin to be late, i bought birthday bears for jason n angela. jus to bribe them...wahhaa nolah i luv givin ppl brithday bears coz its like related to them. n the searching part...took ages.

after the mini-outing with nyssa, we walk to somerset mrt stn slowly drinking lemonade...many things were discuss, got my mind tinking...its good i guess...then off i went to meet jason n angela to have dinner. jason...like ahsoh...sooo SUPER lor soh...

me-being-tickled-by-angela becoz jason wanted the "natural-e" effect

was controlling not to laugh... jason can be irritating at times...angela keeping her coool

angela thot jason is not ready yet

warm chocolate cake wich look kinda scary noow...wahahaaa

newyork cheesecake taken by the cameraMAN...

huGssssss

grp photo!! finally rite...

ooppS caught red-handed...angela peeping into my planner! i tink she cant resist my beyoooooootiful pinky book!

satuRdaY-supposely to meet roda at 330. well...she win me already lah. woke up at 230 n sms me to change time to meet. i thot im the only person who failed in tis world and always wake up late or go sumwhere later. (lectures last wk...was late w/o fail) must change MUST change...anyway...meet her at 530. Off we go to PS. ate pizza hut! we got the cushion seat jus like what i wanted. but!!! whahahaaa ppl who queue up was standing beside us. sooo idiotic. ONe china gurl jus took the mini menu n look at it. sooo rude rite! aiyoh.... we shared chickens shrooms, chicken pizza & OUR faveeeee chicken drumlets & also had chicken of cream soup. notice how everyting was chicken. welll our dearie wheel here dun like beef. Jan 8 marks the day we meet i guess...eversince sec 1!! my lovely dearest Nur Raudhah Bte Abdul Karim...6 long years. n hopefully many longer & wonderful years to come! heheheezzz....

let me present u my dearest lahling....

she said " faster faster....ppl watching" while i was taking tis pic...whahaa coz the ppl queuing was rite beside us.

if you haven notice...i love the SIGHT of fooood!!!

us

-its jus you & me-

back toooo work....

p.s cant wait to climb tml!!! work hard work hard for the comin comp at SP!!! -rockmaster-

~Point me to a NEW direction~

wahhh look at these clrs...really change my mood. whahhaaa...cool rite? today's lecture-da silva...was interesting and yet boring. I wouldnt really say that its boring. I learnt new things everyday. I think about the same thing everytime and yet can come up with a different perception of it. I would be looking at the same person and leave with a different thought. Point me to the new direction, n i will gladly follow.

Today's training, PT session, got me to relax and not tink too much. Running at the reservoir, boy i really do sucks at running. My heart always skip abit, i get this stiches...sooo idiotic u noe. the fitness station was fun! the captain ball was alrite lah. i hate ball games. whhhaaaa...but the team were great. The whole thing really let my mind off some things. U noe sumtimes in life, u just need a distraction. yes a distraction to attract ur attention away from anyting that is going too much on ur head. be it projects, be it food, be it friends, be it love....too much of sumting is nvr enough. too much of sumting gets u take tings for granted or even make things worse. . . i need a new direction coz rite now im at the t junction n all directions are leadin me to somewhere. lead me to sumwhere i dunno...

Bullshit bullshit bullshit bullshit bullshit bullshit bullshit bullshit bullshit bullshit bullshit bullshit!!!!

.Coincidence.

sometimes when you think too much, you get a big real idiotic headache that you dun really need at that point of time. When things dun always go your way, all you want to do is to run away from all the problems and scream out. You want to scream out soooo loud that your lungs inflate till its maximum and then just like in those cartoons, it becomes soo HUGE that your ribcage breaks. the bones poke through your skin, flesh and blood gush out. andddd your heart, your liver, intestines, whatever shit stuff all come out rolling too.

You can be happy, laughing, smiling like a mad woman, twirling your hair at one moment, n the next you get moody, down, ppl crack joke- u dun even smile. Songs that play begin to get all emotional, sappy and freaking idiotically sad. eg. Everything i do by bryans adam, sway by bic runga. All your resolutions of staying the happy person you are gets dump into the drain.

How many times you tell yourself, not to complicate yourself and think too much, and yet you still think because your mind just cant stone n keep quiet. They say the more you think about it, there is a tendency you will forget about it. Bullshit i think. AhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhHHHHhh bring the old me back pleease...everything to be normal. carefree. NORMAL. simple. pleaaasee!

lets talk abt training...i have bruises all over my legs. i small but PAIN is at the kneecap coz i grazed my knee. ewwwwwwwwwww pain. AHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhh cannnnnt tink properly, cnanot update!! i need a real hug now!

p.s olivia's back in town!! woooooohooo!

First day of sch, first day of training!!!

Like i mention before, a new chapter of my life. A new year, A new sem to begin this wonderful life of mine. I will spend it with smiles and appreciate every little thing that happens to me. My family, my friends, the strangers who walk past me...

First stop, lecture by Jeffery Ho. He looks even more cute...but he ahh sooo ahsoh! whahaaaa i love his lectures, full of examples. yesterday, he showed us some adverts but some were too deep for us to follow that no one laughed. Ahhhh finally back in sch, get to see all those familiar faces. Karen lah....mary..bebe...ling ying...shu jing...n many many moreee. Wahh karen hit me inside lecture yesterday, super painn ah. After lecture, meet xiu n mad for lunch. Ahhhh here i come design canteen!! So nice to eat the food from there! wahhaaaa miss it like mad man...

We head to the library, xiu wanted to study. I work on my new Pinky, Butterfly-ry planner. Place the monthly stickers. Took me quite some time. Nyssa came n so does her cookies. Yuum yummy...then we head to the GYM!! yeaaaaaa the rock gym. Eons..since i climb. cant even do a proper one round. Stretching session begins till 7. then since im in team 1, i have to climb outside. aRGHHhhhhh, i dun like difficulty. flat wall, got me breathless. roof i cant push myself hard enough. left dyhedral- aiyoh more worse ah..canot make it. Each move i made, i called for tied. last clip to the anchor, im scared of falling, no energy...wahhh jialat ah! but like yan say, at least i tried. ahhhhhhhhh

BUBBLE tea!! ehheez...then head on home! bro bought my fave fried rice!! hehheee...n now i wide awake for the second day of sch. Starts at 2! whahaaa...my body aching like mad. i feel sooo lethargic. This is keeeeraaazeeee.... alritez, rockamania official meeting n leong bdae celebration!
my dearest leong is 20 already!! heheee happy birthday LEONG!!!

miNi PhoTos Galoooreee

Alritez let me put up sooome pics to brighten this boring n dull blog! As some of you know, my brother's back soooo e cameras' is in my hands now!! whahahaa just like tortoise call it "king"..its big as compared to any other cameras u see now. SO WHAT!! at least can use rite?? whahaaa okiez enjoy looking yea?

this is the "grid" mug that they gave us

Our temp pass

Tortoise's piece of art for me. making the word "S" out of all the icons..kewl huh?

my poor, cold, empty table...

me & ah FAT!!! huGssss

me & wincy!!!

me & tortoise!!!

the pinkies in e boardroom

i have yet to get all the photos, will upload them up as soon as i get them. cant waiittt....ehheheee...will miss this 3 idiots very much!! arghhhhhhhhh.....

A new beginning, a new chapter of my LIFE!!!

i cant fight this emotions, especially when i woke up this morning. to receive messages from my dearest frens. Its just so sad to leave behind the great year of 2004, which was filled up with lots of sad n happy moments. I have to admit that the year 2004, was the year that i experience lots of stuff. Be it that i have moments i like or not, i will treasure all those times as it affect me in many ways and have make me who i am today.

Sooo sorry nyssa n XIU!!! i was in the office till 6. Kie let me explain. It was supposely a half day for the 4 of us. for everybody. But i dunno why we end up clearing our tables, took photos till 6.

Rush to work, took taxi and reach office at 830. Start rushing around getting ready for our presentation. Everybody was up at level 6. except the AMs. We got to the small meeting room n practise by our own. Lavender Room. As we start pratising n commenting on each other. Our dear tortoise was playing on the chair n suddenly he fall. whahahhaaaa i tell u ah wat a funny SIGHT!!! i cannot tahan laughing man. then we all came to help him lah, then when he got up, the chair was leaning back, we pull it forward n guess what? whahaaa the thing came off. HE BROKE the chair!! BIG fat ass, strong tortoise broke the chair. Then it was time to present. Rush up to level 6 with our visual aids, slides all... ALL wore PINK! as we went into the boardroom, whispers of "ahh the pinkies are here" "wahhh time to present ahhh" can be heard.

Surprisingly Marc, our mentor n one of the AMs was quiet throughout the whole presentation. I guess he was there to give us his full support, as he knew how kancheong-heart beating like hell, going-crazy we were. Roger, the AM who always will give comment...n yet he is sooo cute, kept quiet throughout the whole presentation until one time where we can see he really cannot tahan but must give comment. We showed the towel, calender, greeting cards...It was a moment i really cannot forget. Imagine giving a presentation to whole boardroom of sales n marketing experts. The CEO was there, the head of sales, marketing, general manager was all there. Roughly, there were about 23 adults in the room if im not wrong. Alvin, head of sales, announce to the whole room how they appreciate us for organizing the christmas party n that they were impress with our presentation all.

After the presentation, we had a small high-tea session n they gave us GRID mug! Had curry puff and sugar rolls n not forgetting the coffe-milo-mocha-cappuccino-many more machine. then went down back to level 4 n got ready for Alvin's talk. He's gave us talk on Basic sales n yesterday was the second session. Thanks to tortoise for asking him abt it!
after the session which was sumting like our sales management with more real life examples. we talk to Judy, our supervisor, regarding our logbooks, forms n paycheck. Gave back our pass, walkie talkie, charger. Start clearing our tables after that. Well actually the rest were waiting for me. Mine was the worst, thanks to tortoise for treating it like a rubbish area, throwing all the sweet wrappers n stuff n influencing wincy n ah FAT to do so. Threw sooo many papers n newspapers n notes n all away. OMG!!! all are memories. Brought home alot of things too!! i had 3 bags that day. One is my timbuk2, laptop n lastly one big paperbag to put all the stuff.
took pictures as i clear my table. took jus the four of us. It was just the 4 of us n this guy called zhilli. While everybody went off alrady. took our own sweet time cleaning n all...wrote goodbye notes n placing small packets of snacks on everybody's table. GOD i feel sooo sad!!!!

The first day of SIP, we got the honour to sit in during their bi-weekly sales meeting. Meaning we went into the boardroom n witness how they have meetings. The last day, we also had the honour to sit in during their sales forum to give our presentation. I feel like a star shining so bright, twinkling in the sky with the other stars shining as brightly as me. I WILL definately miss the moments the four of us shared with DNA comms aka GRID!!! The mornings we spend in the pantry chitchatting, the times we were telemarketing (making noise while talking to customers), the times we have daily lunch-in togtehr in the lavender rm which we put into a dimly-romantic lighting. The times we ate at five-food way, potato basket n the different types of lemonade. the canteen. the rides to ang mo kio central drove by our AMs. the toilet breaks. the fights we have where everybody
can hear we call joan, AH fat. the little squabbles we have with each other. making so much noise. the LOUD typing when we keep in data for them, imagine 3 ppl typing so loud n sitting in the middle of the office n at the same time complaining to each other. the decoration of the christmas season. Christmas party. Our very own POT LUCK session. Photo-taking session. Ordering macdonalds n pizza hut in. Pizzza Party. making soo MUCH noise n the tidbits we always eat with OLIVIA!!!
I can just imagine how quiet the office will be like w/o us n olivia(for the moment) not around. SO quiet. our 4 empty tables that were placed facing each other. other interns will take over.

It has been a great opportunity n has been an eye opener for me. I truly am glad i was send to tis company as well as the companions that come along with it. the words to describe the feeling is endless n yet I cant put them in the right words to explain each thing in full detail. Its time to move on though, 2005 here i come n warm wishes to all HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!

saaDiaH
still 20.Libra.blue.
loves-.butterflies.collecting pretty notebooks.foreign films.fairies.kids.magic.chEEse fries.raisins.colourful envelopes.glitter.pinics.late night feast.


happiness everyday.more family gatherings.more climber's reunions.driving license.visit beautiful Turkey.travelling.holiday at lovely beaches.to further my studies.a house of my own.a miracle.



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