ARGHHHH so frustrated now! cant
believe i can be feelin alrite at one
moment n soo sucky the next.
if only im brave enough to pour out
my MOST inner feelings, my most
watver i tink is good bad or watver..
if only..i.ts jus so very diff to explain.
i can talk just abt everyting n any
ting under the sun...but when it
comes to such problems, its a big
'?'.

i just found out that i will be working
on sat. ARGhhh n i made plans to
climb at climbasia...i was so excited..
its been ages since i climbed! was
talking to my mum today, e whole
day. keep tellin her..i miss climbin n
all. im so dissapointed. sad. depress
but i will go ask Angie. she's incharge
of my schdeule. pray hard for me!!

i have not done my assignment for
clr n compo class. how horrible!! im
meetin my tutor early ...EARLY in e
morning. how??!! no sleep tonite?
ahhhhhhhh wat happened? i asked
once n i will ask once again. how can
one be happy at one moment n sad
the next? i see my frens havin
depressin days n some with normal
days. frens who can take life so easy.
a care for nothing in e world is it
bcoz its me who chose to choose
such a life. am i the one who is makin
life diff for myself??

i care so much in maintainin how my
frens feel tat i sumtimes 4get abt
myself. n sumtimes i do otherwise.
i guess its normal lah...rite?? tell me
its right. i tell everyBODY xcept myself
tat life is filled up with ups n downs
n tat i should not let the downs bring
me sadness. how do i make myself
belive tat when there up, there will be
downs aiyz....shall jus accept it
n learnt from every experience. coz i
do want to take the longer route
instead of the shorter one. the longer
route is where there are so many nice
scenery for you to enjoy n appreciate
but it takes a much longer time to reach
to ur destination whereas the shorter
route is fast n can be reached in a much
shorter time. i end my say here as i
should be doin my assignment. n i
should really stop frownin!! its hurtin...

p.s roda!! when u wan to collect my
shirts? btw, im sorry i cant be an
"actress" for a day on friday! i got
plans alredy..got CLIMBERS outing.
*climbers take note pls...
really sorry!!! hope u guys have fun
shooting okie??

let me see the show of hands,
those who have gone to tanglin mall.
i bet only 1 out of 10 ppl have gone
there. how do one get to TM? they
take train to orchard, n do not exit
thru the area where there is wisma n
ck tang..instead go the otehr one n go
out. cross the road n take buses tat
go thru ganges rd (??) the one where
there is opp traders hotel.

maybe im assumin that nobody goes
there...but really..the place is empty n
the ppl who i can see are either office
workers or expats. i came a bit late..
since i didnt really noe wat bus to take
n all. has to ask e uncle. wait till u guys
hear the best part. yet to come...i reach
n met sham...my other partner. no not
hisham..ahahhaa..her name is shamsiya.
we clean...i took water...clean..n began
business. till she asked me to go to e
bank n get stock frm nac. part of my
job scope require us to be very MOBILE.
anyway..i felt sooo lost...in tis big world.
in actual fact its not big at all.

i walk n walk...i see buildings that i could
not recognize. finally, i saw hilton hotel,
far east shopping centre. n right in front
is the bank. i was soaking wet n my
esteem so low. but as i walk n laugh at
myself...coz my slippers were slippery n
i keep slippin out from them, i thot tat i
hav learnt sumtin. i now noe how to walk
from tanglin mall to orchard mrt.
workin at TM was great. today's sale was
fab. i enjoyed working at TM. not as many
ppl as compared to NAC. n the customers
buy w/o askin so much. i ate a lot too!!

durin my first break, i had nothin to do..so
after eatin i walk around the Jason's mkt.
n oh boy..the things u find there, sooo diff
from wat u can get from NTUC etc...
i bought a diff type of cauproanio(??) ahha

tml the climbers r goin climbasia!!!!! ahhhhh
w/o me!!!! but nvm im working at CP tml.
wahahaa...work all branches xept tis.
will be meeting kelly...maybe my ex- mango
also. GOOD!!! life is great!!!

oh yea btw..climbers!!! ATTENTION ALL TP
Climbers...pls make urself free on the 30th
april. coz im not working on tat day!! mayb
can hav climbers outing yea??

p.s hav i ever mention how delicious it is to
eat those square butter biscuits with mayo
spread n a slice of chicken ham!! emmmm
superb....n plus u add a sip of VITASOY!!
my my...how heavenly....whahhaaaa

Passed up my portfolio on friday, thank
god!! Ms Wang was a kind-hearted soul.
after tat, watched 'kate n leopold' with
xiu at sch lib. in tis time of life, would i
ever get to meet a gentleman such as
leopold or would a miracle happen?

Suppose to go out with roda on sat, but
she had to "repair" her project, so i went
climbin with the climbers. Plan with xiu
to trick them. took e bus, but when i got
up, sad to say, none was shocked.
white bdae!! he had to leave early abt 4
to celebrate. anyway...black, dale, chety,
xiu, white n me head there first. ahmad
n zib joined us later. didnt climb as much
...was tired n .....anyway..dale n white
left early. left us 6 ppl. stayed, slacked,
learnt to play guitar...till abt 9 n we left.
went back to tamp to eat.

Next day!! Met Roda at her bustp at 6.
cycled all e way to east coast. woah...my
first time. i felt a bit stiff at first, even roda
sense it. ahahhaa she can see lah. i had
trouble goin up hills n stuff... once we
reached east coast..which was crowded
with old ppl, families..kids running ard.
we settle dwn in front of the beach.
sumwhere near e breakwater. we could
see e bedok jetty. sat n ate egg w cheese
n chicken ham sandwiches. talk. pics
we cycled to bedok jetty when it gets dark.
I had lots of fun n felt really relaxed...when
i feel the strong wind blowing past my face.
stop by 7-11, n bought drinks. So funny!!
tis fat guy in a towel wearing a fisherman
hat, was tryin to get roda's number. roda
was signallin me tat she wanted to get out
of there FAST! as we left e guy ask me
whether the gurl in yellow was my fren. i
gav him e blur look n cycle past.

we raced in e dark night. as we rode silently,
i felt so happy just to cycle behind her. i dun
dare lead e way, in case i got lost. though
there we rode in silent, i felt so good. i
guess i could say tat i understand when they
say u could be sitting beside a person w/o
talkin n yet when u walk away u feel tat u
had e best conversation. Thanks roda!! i
really had a Superb time!! heheeee...

we cycle back n sit dwn for awhile at her
playground. talk sumore. i had to go coz
my mum was worried since it was already
dark.

today my first day of work! so tiring..n so
many tings to do...did alot of steamin..
means we sort of iron the stuff there. lucky
jup n cumshot stop by town, n they were
kind enough to join me for lunch. we ate
at lukcy plaza. then during my dinner brk,
had to go centrepoint, to collect paint n
plaster. wah....walk around orchard like tat.
but i took e opportunity to eat my fave sweet
potato. vacuum...wipe..magic clean..mop...
are e things we do..aiyz...tml is annotehr
day!!!

ahhhh....mixing colours is fun. yes..but oh..
my head is boggled up with so much of
"add tis...add a bit of black..nono add
more white..NO more yellow" hahaaaa....
thot takin tis cds clas would be so give
me more time to slack around. Xiu is soo
lucky to hav a tutor who dun give so much
work. my tutor is soo hardworking..though
its gd, i learnt a lot during her class.
Submission tis thursday. im goin to enjoy
myself to tml. i hav to be in sch by 8.30 on
thu. when can i find time to cont with tis
ting??!! arghhhhh....

had to sacrifice smallville n stoned in front
of the comp jus now. whahaahaha... gdnitez
peep, off to more clr mixin now...:D

finally a change of layout! im hungry!!! whahaha..
well...its been a while since i blogged. Nope hav not
commit sucide yet. life has been cool so far. let me
foresee my future for tml...ahhhhh tml i will be havin
lots of fun! whahaa...

saaDiaH
still 20.Libra.blue.
loves-.butterflies.collecting pretty notebooks.foreign films.fairies.kids.magic.chEEse fries.raisins.colourful envelopes.glitter.pinics.late night feast.


happiness everyday.more family gatherings.more climber's reunions.driving license.visit beautiful Turkey.travelling.holiday at lovely beaches.to further my studies.a house of my own.a miracle.



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{khai khai}
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{jOOOp}
{iDham & gf}
{salman}
{whiteeeeeey}
{gayboy}
{ahmaDyat}
{zarian}
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