wah cant believe it!!! my LAST day tml!!!!
the most exciting news ever huh?? ehehe...
gettin real excited! a whole new yr ahead of
me n i can finally leave everyting behind.
memories of bad n good, happy n sad deep
stored all safely in my heart.

i dun really noe how to describe on how i feel
abt tis yr. but....i dun tink it has been a very
good one. i reflect alot on lots of stuff...
keep tinkin abt the past, n sumtime regretting
for not goin for it..or doin sumting to hav make
sumting happen. but then, tis yr i also hav learn
aloooottttt of things....though there's nothing
i can do or say tat will change the history, i hav
sweet n sour thoughts abt it.

oooohhh....the climbers are now on their way to
trengganu..not sure whtehr they hav arrive yet.
hope they hav a safe trip n come back with lots
of stuff n goodies for me n xx...n whoever is stuck
in tis "wonderful sunny island" of singapore..
wahahaa....i wished i was with them...

tml is the last day of 2003!!! so fast huh??? i missed
lots of ppl...y do i keep talking abt missing...n the
past??
jus now reach home abt 1. lots of work today. short
of manpower, n those stupid customers..make life
diff for us!! i really hav a BIG problem with mango
customers...feel like punchin each one of those kiasu
faces!!! actually not all are tat bad...only those certain
who spoil ur mood for the day. i was incharge of the
fittin rm today. OH BOY!!! the clotehs was like mt everest.
so high....i only have a pair of hands to fold, hang n put
the clotehs back to their places...aiyz....then summore
tis customers have tis bad habit of lookin thru my pile of
clothes causing everyting to beocme messy again.

oh yeah..one more thing, i havin tis really bad cough.
i hav lots of flam inside..n now my voice is as sexy as the
frog from our sch drain. i tink most of the customers will
tink im one kind of a gay or sumting...so croaky n deep.

after work, took taxi n my manager brought me to eat
supper sumwhere at kallang. while sitting, i saw a grp of
bapoks....wearing mango clothes...scary ting is tat they
are guys who wear make up n woman clothes. so...
eye-opening. they are as flat as a pole. n sume still hav
their adam's apple..
tml mornign shift..will hav to sleep soon!!! LAST day !!
teehheeeeheheh... *smilez*

jus now was my manager's bdae, she
boughts puffs n cakes for us!! i took 2
home just now. once again we ended
late, n me sis n lina took the cab home.
n they played the hindustani song again.

i guess now tat the part timers are all
gone, they will be more work for us to do.
aiyz..lucky im leaving on 31st. Hee...

just now got 2 he-she came. one of them,
look totally like a gurl. so sweet n demure.
she's tall n walk like a giraffe. very smooth.
but once i hear her talk to her/his fren. i
could just vomit blood. the voice is soooo
deep n guyish. they are either from thailand
or phillipines. the other one, he-she is
sort of obvious. looks like a guy in a way.
he/she asked me for my assistance. twice.
firstly for the v-neck top n another is abt
the belt. i was imagining if she was a he..
originally form. he could have been a hot
fave!! he sort of look like johnny depp.
deep set eyes n stuff.

gotto go n hav some rest. early mornin
wakey wakey already. after 6, off i go
for BBQ!!! its been ages ah...hope i have
great fun!! till then..toddle-looo :P

reach home at 12 today...aiyz..
i cant believe in a few more days, n
i will not be working anymore. 4 days
of pure bliss, n POOMPH...back to sch!
talking abt sch, i tink i saw ms celestine
ang..if im not wrong.

ive been working for abt 2 mths plus, im
gettin more bolder n bolder to customers.
impatient also...but i really cannot stand
some of them...jus now one idiotic customer
knudged me with her elbow at my back. does
not even hav the courtesy to say sorry.
aiyoz....ppl nowadays so rude!!

Ooohhh...mango have their very own fragrance.
i tink they hav tis veyr classic scent. not my type.
but since they hav the tester, i sprayed myself
today!! whahaaa...free perfume till 31st dec.
my last DAY!!!!!!! ehhehee...

tis comin sunday, i will be endin work early, n
going to karen's bbq!!! the only fun thingy im
looking forward to!! well..till sat passes, im
waiting for sunday evening!!

jus now while cleaning up, they played a
hindustani song. zul n ah boon, both are our
storeboys were dancin while sweeping the
floor. those 2 guys are very cartoonistic n
lazy bums!! whahaaa.....

tis entry ends here coz im dead tired already!
:D

i fall sick again!!! yesternight, had a slight
fever. to make matters worse, when i opened
my cupboard, the door broke from it hinges
n hit me on my head. So suay!!!

its hurts till i cried. first of all, i am already
havin fever, n the door was jus the last
straw. my dad saw me cryign n he didnt noe
wat to do. whahaaa....he became all kanchiong.
i went to bed straight away. no medicine, im no
big fan of them. instead i take a wet towel n
put it on my forehead.

at work today, saw some bapoks, scary
mary!! wahhahaa...some are very sweet lookin
jus their dressing!! Foooh!!...PoWerrrrrr!! whahaa

u noe, initially i had tis very bad feelin n feel like
this is the worst christmas ever. like last time,
every year will watch tv n enjoy the shows on tv.
sit in my warm quilt watchin n eating. but now,
im working. walk home alone, coz my sister was
morning shift while im in noon shift. on the way hme,
saw faizal, walk n talk for awhile.

reach home, ate nasi lemak n log cake!! was my
first time eatin log cake! ehhee...

oh yeah, jus remembered, after the comp, while
waiting for the rest, we sat at the sports complex
n mad was playing azmi guitar. when azmi starts
to strum "tat thing u do" me n nyssa n mad started
to sing...though i may sing out of tune, wahaa
i tink we make a great team!! whaaahaa....i miss
singing in big groups. when i was in secondary sch,
angela, hui jun, gee fang n faustina use to be my
singing partners. be it npcc songs or pop songs...
those were the days i guess...hopefully, we get
to do all tis again soon!!!

Acrophobia v1.4

WOAH!!! tis time comp was definately
different. we are all placed into a
team. my team mates include oz sham,
nazib, King, wilson n Joel. guess wat??
we got 3rd in position!! all tis out of
6 grps. i guess we could say we did
great, coz me, joel n sham did not train
at all. we've been slackin alot.

kinda sad coz i didnt complete the route.
i reached the last tile, but i was too
kanchiong, i swing out n fall, flop on
the mattress. my right shoulder hurts for
a while. BUT!!! im really happy n had fun.
joel complete. king almost reached the
leading route. he's really powerful!!
Skilled. Sham got to the 100 points.i tink
he can go higher but maybe he nvr wear his
black tube ah. wilson got halfway. nazib n
king were doin the speed routes. i tink all
in all, we did fine..it was really last minute.
me n sham discuss our clr the night b4.

Black was wat we wore. will out up pic asap.
Oh yea...we got a hamper.thanks to the committee
ah!!! ehhee...the hamper were great stuff.
towels to wipe our tears, sweat n blood, bottle,
chocolates to give us energy. socks to keep our
feet clean.wahahaa...i got to keep the red
adidas bottle since im the only gurl in my grp!!
thanks teammates!! really glad to hav them in
the team,though for awhile, all were very
cooperative.



unfortunately xx sprained her ankle, she went
hme early coz she havin dinner at her grandma hse.
hope she get well soon!!

we went to bedok interchange n had our lunch cum
dinner. ate at long john. made a commotion as
usual lah...nyssa n mad were fightin for the
seats. aiyoz...whahaha...they all cont to catch
LOTR at PS, me liyana luqman azima n azmi went
hme. my bro cooked green curry. have yet to try.
my bro cook!! he cook u noe..dun play play...
wahhaha....oh yea talk abt azima, she keep tryin
to get me to buy from her, her tupperwares. so ppl,
whoever who want to get new set of tupperware can
contact tis gurl!! whahaa...

p.s oh one more thing, finally get to see Farah in
person!! whahaha...halo halo farah!! i tink she
pretty ah, surely got some kind of mixed blood rite?
dun look like normal malay....hmm...*thinks*

hehee..tml workign again!!

p.p.s happy 24 Birthday to my BROtheR!!!! *peace*

Yay!! tml is my off day! todae
was okie..manager was not in, the
store boy was not there too! though
im a bit sad that the 'hope' is gone
for the moment...

oh yeah..y im happy the store boy is
not around is because he always play
the bob marley cd. SUPER irritating...
he keeps playing till i get sleepy.
"...buffalo soldier...da dadaada.."
But there's this one song, wich goes
like tis, "..im..im willing n able..
so i throw my cards on ur table.."
its by Bob Marley titled "is tis love?"

all my doubts are sort of clarified
thru tis email..sort of true when u tink
abt it...
-Infatuation is instant desire, It is one
set of glands calling to another.

Love is a friendship that has caught fire.
It takes root and grows, one day at a time.

Infatuation is marked by feelings of
insecurity. You are excited and eager, but
not genuinely happy. There are nagging doubts,
unanswered questions, little bits and pieces
about your beloved that you would just as soon
not examine too closely.
It might spoil the dream.

Love is quiet understanding and the mature
acceptances of imperfection. It is real. It
gives you strength and grows beyond you to
bolster your beloved. You are warmed by his
/her presence even he/she is away. Miles do
not separate you. You want him/her nearer,
but near or far, you know he/she is yours
and they can wait.

Infatuation says, "We must get married right
away! I can't risk losing you!"

Love say, "Be patient, Do not panic. Plan
your future with confidence."

Infatuation has an element of sexual excitement.
If you are honest, you can admit it is difficult
to be in one another's company unless you are
sure it will end-- in intimacy.

Love is the maturation of friendship. You must
be friends before you can be lovers.

Infatuation lacks confidence. When he/she is
away you wonder if he/she is cheating.
Sometimes you check.

Love means trust. You are calm, secure and
unthreatened, Your beloved feels that also
and that makes them even more trustworthy.

Infatuation might lead you to do things you
will regret later, but love never will.

Love is an upper. It makes you look up, It
makes you think up.
It makes a better person.

today was my only hope.
waited the whole day n night but it made me
so sad.. i was cranky the whole day. most of
the customers got the silent treatment when
they ask me qns. i jus nod or shake my head.
or pt to the direction.

net up with hj jus now. walk thruout the streets
of orchard. saw kian haw. boy, he changed.
but his voice n behaviour is still the same. wahaha..
kian haw..kian haw... hj n i took the mrt back.
told her my story n she told me hers...wahhaa...
then decided to meet up with angela.
reached tm, angela was watchin movie. wahh..
angela is like a movie critic, she have to watch
every movie shown in the cinema b4 she is
satisfied. whahaa....;) ive nto watch a movie for
ages...

anyway, left me n hj. wanted to wait for her, but
will be quite some time. instead, we bought fries
n had a cosy time bhind tm there. the lights went
off suddenly. whahaa....

reached home n here i am..while chattin with my 2
other rc gurlfrens, the "hope" i was waiting for,
came...it sure did make me hapy, but...
yes there Buts...

i hav only one pathetic off day!!
but i hav asked especially on Tues.
yes tis tuesday, 23rd dec. my bro birthday.
y?? coz i wan to take part in the comp. i
wonder how my performance will be like,
i hav not been climbing for how long!!...
aiyz...

just quarreled with my brother yesterday.
felt bad after the whole thing but i was tired.
n he asked too many qns..ask me when im
free, he wan to watch movie with me...then
when he say im soooo busy with work. i could
not stand it anymore, so i become a nuisance
n told him not to use the word 'busy' coz im not
busy...i luv working n etc etc...

he got angry n say all the idiotic tings...i just kept
quiet though i hav lots to say...after tat, i felt really
bad till i feel like crying. but im okie, we both okie
now....

aiyz aiyz aiyz...its rainin now..my fave weather...
but im all heartbroken....aiyahzzzzzz.....nvm tml is
another day..should enjoy while i still can!! :D

sweet dreams!!

enough abt me complainin abt the customers i
get to see everybody. Im sick. i have cough, flu
n jus yesterday a slight fever. Fortunately the
fever went dwn n jus left with cough n flu.
my voice sounds really "sexy", like the frog who
croaks at our school drains...wahhahaa...

Im very confused rite now!! tink im too engrossed
in my work tat i no longer tink abt reality. my
dreams, my thoughts are all jumbled up. but jus
like my dear old fren hav advised me, take
things one step at a time..etc etc..

There are soo many things tat i wan to talk abt,
but since im rite here sitting in front of the comp,
i couldnt tink of any.

Oh yeah, here's a Love story wich i came across
in my mail. i find it really true n somewhat meaninful,
enjoy...=D

part 1
Love is like 2 people filling up a piece of paper...

A relationship starts off as a clear piece of paper. A
guy and a gal
agrees to write on that piece of paper. When it
starts, both r excited as
it's their first time working together. They fill up
the paper with the
best of things they can think of. Sometimes the guy
writes more, sometimes
the gal writes more. Some people writes without
thinking much, some writes
after some thought.


As the writing carries on, it gets more and more
tiring. The couple have
to be motivated to keep on writing.This is the
commitment and
responsibility of a relationship.As long as the urge
to write
continues,the writing will never end.It will carry on
paper after paper
until one pen's ink run out. This is eternal love till
death do us
apart...


Some couples prefer to write together,some write their
own and combine the
efforts.Neither side should be the only one
writing,else ink may get
blocked for the party who writes non-stop. Too
tired...


The character of a person is like the handwriting on
the paper... Everyone
has his/her handwriting. It is very difficult to
change one's
handwriting.Not impossible but it takes a lot of time
and hard work.


The outcome may not be desirable.It is also difficult
to imitate the
handwritings of another person.The most one can do is
to be tidier or more
untidy in their handwritings.Sometimes,to make the
writing on the paper
look more presentable,it could be necessary for either
side to slightly
alter the style of his/her handwritings...

Got home like half an hr ago. today was
the first day for Mango sales. Oh boy!! it
was one of the most tiring day in my life!
As normal, woke up late n rushed to work
in a taxi. shop opened at 8. so early rite??

Then come in all the kiasu sporean, who is
sooooo not considerate. Anyhow take the
clothes, anyhow throw, anyhow put there n
here. Lets not be bothered abt tis ppl, so lets
count the hrs tat i hav worked. from 8 to 12 plus.
n they give us taxi fare to go home. not bad eh??
but if everyday like tat, i tink i can fall flat on the
ground ah.

Yesterday had great fun!! First was the level 2
course. Learn lots of new stuff like the 3 types of
prussiks, prussiking, lead fall, the diff types of
belaying. n etc etc. then we did abseiling, it was great
fun!!! we abseiled from the top of the wall. i was
garrick's guinea pig. but im here, okie n healthy!!

stayed for trainin, climbed but could not complete
fie's route. haiz...zero's shorts n my chalkbag is of
the same material n clr. both prana! whahaha...maybe
one day can exchange then become like one set. :D

after trainin, we all washed up n head dwn to Ocha
paradise. Its a really "cool n relaxin" place for us to
sit dwn n chit-chat. whahhaa....fazli bought 3 bubble
tea, so kiasu ah...oh yea not forgettin, kailing likes to
bite ppl inside the gym. she bite liyana. must be hungry.

must go off now, its 3 and i should get some sleep for
tml! another BIG day!! ;)

CLiMb-X at TJC

woke up early for once!!! i on my alarm, n i woke
up at 730. yesterday nite, i did not went online
because i was too tired. after a great, chicken-licious
supper, i sat dwn and flipped thru ALLURE mag,
the mag is like really nothing. Nothing tat i find
interesting...i fall asleep.

Its gonna be a long week ahead of me. Oh yeah
back to the comp. Got ready, n meet captem at my
bustp. Lucky he stay sumwhere near, if not i duno
how to get to Tjc. We took bus 38 and inside the bus
we compare our bags.


tis is a pic, while still in the bus. bus 38 drives past
simei!!


while we were comparing!! whahahaa...


grp photo after a long hard day!!!....

wahahahah...had a great time with them. Its been
quite a while, tats bcoz i hav not been climbin since
im working n i cant come for training. aiyaz...
anywayz, off now to dreamland!!! am so tired n
sleepy!! such a hot nite, dun tink will sleep soundly!

okie u guys, tis is some info for all climbers...

Name of Course
Sports Climbing Level 2

Dates
Slot 1-- 10-11 Dec ’03
Slot 2-- 13-14 Dec ‘03

Time
9am-5pm

Venue
TP Rockwall/Rockgym

Fee
S$55

How to register?
Email your full name, matrix no, year of study,
slot, contact no, to climbing@student.tp.edu.sg
You are encouraged to register ASAP as each
slot has limited quota. Maximum of 20 participants
per slot. Registration is of first come first serve basis.

i tink after u hav emailed, we will give u a call, to
confirm tat u got a space in the slot...so email asap!!

FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!! i got my bag!!
heheheee...i LUV my bag!! initially, i had
some doubts, but now...i luv my bAG!!!!



Meet up with jup, nyssa n xx. we had brunch
at Macdonalds, then walk around at Queensway
shopping centre. we saw shoes!!!!!!

Me n xx go to climbasia to meet up with wani!
didnt climb much, was tired n no motivation.
got my card though!!! eehehee...personalised
card!! :D anyway, went off at abt 5.45 to meet
up with eric, angela, hj, sh n dean!! we went to
the glasshouse!!! so cool!! if we had the chance
to sit on the second floor it would have been much
more kewl!!! after dinner, we walk around...n
finally mad our way home! ehehee...
enjoyable n left sweet memories!! too bad,
gee fang, tina, azlee n jason could not join us!!
nvm, there will be more outings! but tis one,
is specialy dedicated to my dear 'bro' who is
going off to NS soon!!! :D

My handphone is goin to be very quiet tis
few days. lately, its been beeping, like almost
everyday....

wanted to blog yesterday, but had trouble with
the connection, since my bro jus bought a new
modem. i had supper with angela n hui jun.
meetin them again with the rest tml. im goin to
collect my bag first!!! teeheee....

i ahven been to trainin like for years...wahahaa...
okie so im exaggerating but its really been a long
time since i get to touch the wall. we are havin a
competition this sunday. i have asked for off, but
im not sure whether its approved. but i dun care.
i will go for the comp.

i was in the store the whole day!! clippin tag n while
i was pickin up the sensor tag which dropped on the
floor, my knee accidentally "rest" directly on top the pin
n my knee got jabbed. wahhahaa....it was soo
scary. anyway, i ate snake alot, tried on lots of jackets.
hehhehee....:D

saaDiaH
still 20.Libra.blue.
loves-.butterflies.collecting pretty notebooks.foreign films.fairies.kids.magic.chEEse fries.raisins.colourful envelopes.glitter.pinics.late night feast.


happiness everyday.more family gatherings.more climber's reunions.driving license.visit beautiful Turkey.travelling.holiday at lovely beaches.to further my studies.a house of my own.a miracle.



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