I went to geylang today! Its been ages since
i went there. My mum was looking for some
curtains tassles and cloth. I bought my
costume already!! ehheee...now i do not
need to worry!

We then break our fast at the restaurant at
tanjong katong complex. I tink i ate the most.
Since my bro is not around, i tink i have taken
over his position. hahaa...dun worry bang, u
can have ur position back as soon as ur back!!
dun forget what i ask for ah!! ehheee....

wah..so its been like 10 mths since my bro is
away. Seem so long but yet its feels very fast.
Maybe because i get to chat with him almost
every night. I feel so good and thank u ( to
whom it may concern) to have created tis
technology. Internet. Without tis, i dun tink i
hav the opportunity or the fastest way to ask
my bro hows his doin, wat he is doin, wat he
ate...and tell him abt my problems. He will be
back soon! when?? Ooooohhh..tat is a mystery!
though i noe when n wat time! i tink i shall keep
the date a mystery! whahahaaa....

Second Day of work

Yesterday was an exhausting day, today!!
Today was Fun day! I really had fun at work.
I dun really feel like as though im working. Hmm
maybe tis is because its only my second day.
Im all gung-ho abt it. Anyway, we have to use to
walkie talkie wich we hang around our waist. Its
really fun. Hehhee....we use it when customers
want a new piece or a model tat we do not have
on display.

Bzz bZzz.. "check stock" Bzzzz bzzzz "0293749"
Clr: 09 size m." thats hw it goes. Made new frens
All females, so we have much more fun!
There are so many clotehs to fold. All tis customers!!
Aiyz....its like when i finish a whole stack, i turn
around. When i come back, its all messy again.

Break fast at BK. With my sis and Suzie (the cashier)
Oh n i learn 2 new things today. Virginia Slims are
meant for woman, so that they would look more
sophisticated since they are smaller n thinner.
I learnt how to do tis:
( hope it comes out rite)


Tis is how my desktop looks like. I wan to change
since its been ages, but i dunno who else to change
to.
Not forgetting to thank FiRe who taught me tis!!
whahaha.....i find tis sooo interesting!

OH!! tml is my OFF day! Fri i work morning shift.
Hmm...i hope i will continue havin fun while
working so that i wont feel the tiredness...

I tink if i write tis msges on my tagboard, it
will take up too much space. Thus an
incredible idea pops in my mind!!

Chey-t= yeap the song is kinda related to my blog.
Actually im looking for the song tat goes a little sumtin
like tis, "..a e yai e yai ur my little butterfly.. blue??
make the clrs in the sky...." but i tink very ahlia-nish

Sockspanter=ehhe yes im working now!! So happy
to hear from u!!!! hehee....u?? working? i msg u, u
nvr reply. tryin to save ur smses isit??surveys are
done! im left with 4 but mr. Seow took them back.
u have fun too!!!!!!

spices= yeap!!! u take care too!! till we meet again
:D *winks knowingly at angela*

jannah= yeap!! was surprise to see u! ehhehee
one day we should meet!...after ur exam....n when
i not working kie?? hehee....

First day of work

Wah! Im exhausted! 8 full hrs of standing!
And i haven finish the Mr seow's surveys
and even better news is tat im meetin him
tml.

OH NO!!! Im feelin so tired and stuck.
I cant tink of anybody who can help me
out with the survey's thingy.

Sick!! so sickening!!!
Aiyzzzz............

I realise that everything does not turn out
the way you want it to be. There are things
that you want, that you like but you can never
get. There are things that you hate, you
dislike but always there for you to see, hear
and you have to put up with.

Hmm.. now now, why did my dear xx say
that she cant see anything in my blog??

wahaaa...
at first He-sham taught me how to put music
into 'my life'. It went great and i was so excited
that blog had music. Unfortunately, the next day,
i log in,i found my blog in total mess. No entries,
no tagboard. I checked my template n some html
were missing. I must have been too sleepy when
he taught me, that maybe i terdelete
some of the html thingy.

Anyway, Juf, my second teacher taught me add
music, n tada...my blog is now playing one song.
So thanks to He-sham and Juf.

The fasting month is here. But i reckon it will pass
by very quickly. Today is the first day of fasting!
I want to break my fast at home. Coz i noe i wont
be at home to break my fast coz i will be working.
Sunday: it was a sleeping day for me. I slept
after a late lunch and dreamt. I dreamt that me
n my frens were chased my a BIG snake. And
there was tis old looking woman who kept staring
at us. She seemed to be singing.

Its 1150 now, i woke 20 minutes ago. I guess
today will be the last day to wake up late. i dream
again. Tis time around. I was with tis guy who was
really good in climbing. Dunno why the rest were
separated. We had to walk thru jungles and
greenery paths. Suppose to be a great sight, but
i felt scared walking there. as if there were monster
or ghosts. Sounds of water running can be heard, i
then realise there were waterfalls. See, i told u it
was suppose to be a worthwhile sight.
We waited for all to come, but since none came, we
trace back our steps and saw the whole bunch.
They were playing a ball game.

See what funny dreams i have..If only, i knew whther
these dreams have a meaning and what it means.
aiyz..off to school i go!!

Another day of slacking!!
Breakfast= durian, durian n more durian.
Bath and all, walked to my grandmother at
about 6 plus. Meet my dad and i surveyed
my grandma. Then we went to one of my
uncle's house. Surveyed my aunt n uncle.
Played with my little cousin, who keep
chuckling each time i cooed at him.

Off we went to my other uncle house. Woah!
He taught me alot, just in like 2 hrs plus.
We talk about digi cam, video cam, insurance,
internet, broadband n wireless n stuff. I really
learn alot from him. Was at his house till 11 plus.
He couldnt stop talking. Ate roti prata for supper.

whahaa....i just watch the video clip the time
i kena sabo since my bdae was like 10 days
away. Yes yes yes, i noe...saadiah so LAG!
but then, i jus d/l real one player n quicktime
jus so i can watch it.

Aiyoh so...damn funny!!! wished the whole
thing was longer!!
Anyway, goin off to eat lunch n some durians!
wahaahahaa...my dad jus brought home
durian!!! my fave...

Met up with Xx to play squash. Oh boy!!
I was perspiring like nobody business. Mad and
Jup soon came to join us. We rushed all the way
to city hall, after the game since we were alrady
late. Sorry Xx, to make u rush like hell, but i noe u
understand!!

Interview went great, i tink. Both xx n i got the job!
wahhahaa.....interesting isn't it?? we got the same
job, just that i will start early due to some
circumstances. do i even have to repeat?? ;)
Hmm....Happy Deepavali to those who are
celebrating today!

Oh yeah after the interview, we had dinner and
we both bought tis gio kids tee!!
Thats all for now, im still figuring out how to d/l
all this player...real, quciktime and all...

One fine day, 2 pretty gurls have ended their
class!

Chp 1
Muahahahaa... xx n me now in cybercentre!!
xx: hello!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
erh.. hehehe!!! im in cybercenter with saad!
yeah!!!! ahahah!

we hav come all the way here jus to book the
court. wah the person at the counter very
unfriendly one!!! :|
xx: ya lor.. stupid ass face!!!!
wahaha okok i tink its time we log off n go print
the receipt, rite xx??
xx: ya!!hehe!! lets go!!

And off they go, the two pretty gurls to the OSC.
Till the next chapter, stay tune!!
xx: -woooosh!!!!- *disappears*
(chuckles chuckles!!!!)

Hmm...So many things so little time.
I bought my bag and have to wait for 8 wks
till i can finally hold, touch and feel my bag.
MY bag around my neck!! ehehee

To my dear frens, no im not getting all soft,
sentimental and jiwang. no not mental also.
That is for u lah jup!

Exams are near, and its time for u all to study!
wahahha....i have a job interview today!
Wish me all the best, and hopefully im able to get
the job. ehhee...so excited!!

Xin Xiuuuu....xin xiu!!! why u wan to say goodbye also!
hmmm....many times i told you but its up to you to
decide on wat u wan!
but if u think its gona work then wait for it! if not...
i no comment!

till i have time for my next post!!! toodles!!! *winks*

Each time im here in front of the comp, i will be
feelin tired and sleepy. Therefore, i could not
continue with what i have to say.

Anyway i will continue when i do have the stuff in
my mind.

This is a poem i found lying around somewhere
cause i thot it seem to be so sweet...:-

I love the way you look at me
I love the way you smile
I love it when you tease and grin at me
It makes me feel worthwhile.

I love the way you care for me
The sweet and charming words you say
The funny things you do, the way you walked
And the way your hair is styled

But nonetheless, we were not meant to be
Cause you were wild and free
While i was quiet and shy and basically im just me
I wish things were different if its up to me
But I can do nothing because i do not have the Key

Flames died down, feelings gone
I do not think the chemistry will reborn.
I know its hard, I know its tough
With a relunctant big Sigh
I must say its time to say Goodbye!!!


Comment on the poem!!

Continuation...(spelling?)
Anyway, oh yeah, They bought me this book, titled
"Girlophosy: the love survival kit book"! its an interesting
book with lots of great sceneries and pictures.

I love it!! TOTALLY!!! whahahaa...After a game of
frisbee, burying me in the sand, swimming, cards,
we had out picture sessions. Soon, we head down to
the toilet to wash up. N off to harbourfront.
We went to "im loving it" the place was like so nice. sooo
modrn and we can take as many sauce as we like. real
kewl.

We stop by Sengkang and went shopping at the same
time. Angela bought a halter dress, n i bought this pair
of lines 3 quarter. We stop by Dairy Queen and had ice
cream. after that we continue shopping before going
home. We ask for directions, coz we were kinda lost on which
bustp we should be takin in order to go back to tamp.

I collect my new specs and head on home.
Wah so sleepy alredy...will condition, next time then!!

A great day at Sentosa!!
With King Eric, Angela dear, Geez Fang,
Shi Hui, n lastly irritating Jason!!
Whahhaa....Jason can be so irritatin at times.
call my name for nothing, pull my bag and hit me
just because he feels bored.

They gave me my Very very very Belated birthday
gift. Shi Hui got me Happy House mug, which they
all said that was so ME!! coz it has a princess on it.
I noe i noe, i am everybody little princess. Heez

Angela, Gee Fang, Eric and Hui Jun bougt me a book.
So sleepy wil continue tml. Nitez

JAP EXAM DONE!!!!!!!!! Yes like so finally!
All i have left is Jap oral and listening compre.
I should my dig my ears for that. And now,
finally i can relax and have some fun!

Time to look for a job too! Need cash so i can
buy all the stuff in the WORLD... Maybe,
hopefully, perhaps, possibly, on wednesday,
going to order my bag! i definately need a
bag becoz i just need one.

Going to buffet, climbing, exercise, sun-tanning
shopping, EAT, and did i mention eating??
wahhahaa.....after some time relaxing n having
fun, i wan to work!!! yes work work work!!!

ehehee...till then let me have some peace n
catch some sleep after all those long nights
i spend awake... Gd afternoon and have a great
WEEKEND!!!!!!!!!!! -peace

Went to student lounge and Karen taught
me how to play pool. Saw an incredible sight.
A sight not to be forgotten. Ahhhhhh!!!!

whahaaa...raining outside. Waiting for time
to pass to meet Mr seow later.

So romantic!! Jus finished watching
shotgun marriage! Aiyz, life can be full of up
and downs but yet when you put 2 heads
togethr and love is involved,evryting just
goes smoothly.

Oh and abt family matters. When Chiyo was
talking to her dad. Thanking him because
she is all grown up and gettin married soon,
naturally you will feel sad too! ahhhh....

Ahhhh!!!
Finally Finally FINALLY!!!!! Life is back to
normal! heheeee... Presentations, projects
are OVER! yes O-V-E-R.

Im left with Jap exam, and then i can do all
sorts of other stuff that i have been craving
to do! Aiyz, cycling, climbing....
Eh wait, must do somthing before i forget.

Dedicated especially to xx,
*chuckles* Xin Xiu...Xin Xiu....
thanks for being there for me when i needed
you the most. u noe what i mean. yeap thanks
my projects, presentations are finally over!!
All im waiting for is the results. Hopefully all
the hard work pays off! Blood, tears, sweat
were all involved!! Love u lots n lots babe!!

Life can never be normal. Woke up to find out
that my mum took my glasses to work. She
thot my specs were hers. Hahaa.....i had to use
my old one. Went for make-up Jap class.
After class, met her at the bustp and we went
to TM to make new glasses, i tink its time.

So expensive!! mine is titanium, means its like
the lightest of the lightest, although the brand
is not what i have heard before, i tink the design
is unique and simple. Has my mum n sis to sponser

Ate lunch and hurry back to sch. Did presentation
slides and all. Meet Cla-rice for tea and cont. Then
went off to the rock wall for seniors meeting and after
that went to cont with the presentation stuff. End at
aroun 10! took the bus home with mary. Mad, sufi,
ahmad anf fazli took the bus too!

So tired. have to stop here! ;)

Im craving for potato chips!!

Anyway Happy 18th Birthday to my dear
fren Chua Hui JUN!!!!!!!!!!

Hmm....
As normal, i came late for my project grp meeting. We all came
extra early to practice for our presentation.But alas, i came
late and they all suan me.Took and pose for a few
pics in the study room. All the candid ones! At 12 we went for
our presentation. Leng was so helpful! He kept giving us that
sly smile of his. During Q & A, he keep smiling and just nod his
head.

Took more pics, before heading to ITAS for lunch. Finally got the
chance to breathe the air of the ITAS canteen! heeehe...The fried
rice is so -omoishii- (delicious).

Meet Nyssa and Chee for the talk. Woah, the ambience of the
place was so cold and what with the lights dim and all, chee and
i were dozzing off. Haahaa...only nyssa was wide awake. Though
her slipper fall to the next section, to the one below us. Hahaaa.....
Oh yeah the talk was abt ST electronics. Mr Seah, the 'lecturer',
was so funny! Firstly he only look to his right while giving his
speech and when he answered questions, it was so amusing.

Anyway, came to the food part. Nyssa, Chee and i were the
perfect team. We took every different type of kueh, food that
was place on the table and tried them. the durian puff was the
Best! eheeheee....Yan came to join us. Fire too!

Then all the timbuk2s took a pic! i cant wait to get one myself,
but my cash flow is really low. hhaaa its rhymes..
Hmm have to tink carefully first...Oh eya, after the whole thingy,
we all head dwn to sports complex. Sat down n talk. Then they
all book the squash court. wahlao the uncle there is so crappy.
He keeps joking with us. teachin us to juggle and stuff. i tink
his job is so dull that he has nothing better to do, n spend it
to master the art of juggling. muahahaaa...

Oh im not finish yet! Role-playing as Snow White! My grpmates
were so such blursotongs. They cut off one of my lines. I have
like only 4 lines, and now i only have 3. Tsk tsk tsk....
Tats all i have for now. Im so exhausted with todae's program.
Tml i have to go for a make-up lesson for my dear Jap class.
Kubo sensei, watashiwa e nemas! i hope i got it right. it is
suppose to mean that im going to sleep.

What a scary moment i had, i was in the lab
with Karen, when that bitch walk in front of
us. When Karen wanted to call her, she walk
out of the lab. her speed was so fast. all 3 of us
followed her. She went to the access lab, we
followed her, then they confronted her. I went
to call the lab tech.

SCARY, coz she wanted to walk out. The whole lab
was wathcing us coz she was shouting like nobody
business. She gave some lame excuse about her
having class and she is given 5 mnutes by her
lecturer to go to the lab.

I was so scared that such people even exist in our
school. she was shouting and swearing all the way
out. she just ran off. I hope the school is doin
something about it, coz it aint safe letting tis
crazy bitches running hell lose in school. it seem
so dangerous. I guess we all have to watch our
backs from now on.

The smell has faded away, but the memory still
remains. Eventually, i guess it will still fade away.
Tomorrow i ahve Customer Psy presentation,
BOG lctr and finally my role-playing for arts app.
So exciting!! me as snow white is impossible.
but snow white has the least sentences, n im
happy with that.

Went for training, but hav no mood to climb. feel
so lethargic and weak. WOAH!! tis sat got jap exam.
Aiyz....after that can do all the FUN stuff.. n finally
i can be a happy gurl again! ;)

Like i mentioned in my last entry, so many
things and so little to time. Im exhausted right
now. Yeap, IM BACK!!! back from camp.
One definately FUN, leisure camp.

Its suppose to be a training camp, but due to
weather and last minute decisions, things became
a bit 'unalive'. But overall, it turn out great, coz we
did learn something and experience something new

First night, i came a bit late and i missed the games.
Sleeping time was hmmm...a bit hazardous. whats
with little kids playing catching and jumping around,
those who wanted to sleep were affected.
Unfortunately i was one of them. Second night was
better. I fell into a long deep sleep till Zero woke me
up. he needed his stuff back since he is off to work.
thats y..on a sunday morning...aiyz...he taught me some
yoga positions and teach me the right method of
breathing.

Plannin to climb in TJC was ruined due to some
circumstances, therefore we went to Dairy Farm. After
NE, collect food from design n took a taxi to dairy farm.
It seem so fun to walk thru the path, full of mud, grass,
sharp branches and all. Unfortunately i came with the
second batch, i didn;t get to climb on any natural rock.
BUT!! i did get to abseil. My first time. To get to the top
already make me tired. Manage to pose for pic though,
before i abseiled dwn. Initially was slippery and i was
so scared that i lower dwn myself slowly, but when i
get the rhythm, it became fun and exciting.

back to school we went to wash up.
PPL im telling u, our school is not safe. Even with
security guards, strangers can come in.
Anyway, the comp at the end of the camp was
interesting. Though i did badly.

Lookin back at the places that stuff happens.
Smelling when u close your eyes, u imagine tat
scene n it brings u back to tat very moment
sometimes u wish u would or should have
done something more to make memorable.
Some stuff may sweet memories and some
horrible. But its okie, because some tings are
just not meant to be. :D

SOoooooooooooo many things happen
today!! funny horrible..sickening...
mixed up feelings in me...but
then i totally have no time..to say it all out
coz im going to CAMP!!!!!

yeap Sports climbing training camp
cya all on SUNDAY!!! ehehee....till we meet
again!! have a great wkend u guys!!!!!!!

how does one feels high??
happy?? exhilarated?? excited??
I have forgotten how it feels to be
happy or excited over something.

how does one gets to be fresh, lively
and joyful all day long? i have forgotton
how to. But dun worry, things are
going to be fine. back to normal, soon!!
Yeap as soon as i would like it to be.

Hmm..in Xx blog, she talks abt pple who
just dun show their true self. Its true, ppl
normally put on a facade, to cover their true
self as they may be shy or afraid to show
ppl their original person. Unfortunately, i do
that most of the time.

Like for example, for the past few weeks, life
have been tough on me, but nevertheless it will
soon be over. life cna be tough and rough on me
but soon it will be over and i will be okie.
Oh eyah, like i said the past few weeks have been
'great', but i put up a brave front and try my best
to forget so that those around me would not be
affected. But evrything's goin to be alright.

a hectic day!!!

well anyway!! tis fri n coming weekend
i will be away!! off to training camp i go!!
yippee!! looking forward coz i thot maybe
it could be my sort-of holiday.

but i have to think of JAP assignment and
i also have to think abt arts app acting.
OH n not forgeting the presentations!!!

ahhhhhhhhhhh...........
i have sumting to tell you guys, but
unfortunately i have forgotten it.
let me recall the news and i will come
back asap!.....

im addicted to snacks, biscuits
and ice cream. The whole day ive been
eating this unhealthy food.
Start the day with Calbee potato chips.
You know those hot n spicy flavour.
Then i toast a bread n put butter on it.
On to Mary's house. Ate twisties and
Jack n Jill salsa flavour potato chips.

Then came along Walls ice cream.The 3 of us
finished up the whole tub. Now im back home,
eating Tasty biscuit stick. My dad brought home
Lamp chop with rice. Suddenly i ahve not mood
to eat any. I tink i dissapoint him. OH NO!! i
feel so bad...i ate some of the lamb chop and the
corn.
Im sorry dad!! i didnt mean to hurt you, just that
i have no appetite ro eat rice right now.
okie going off to watch tv. will cont with this hectic
work you guys call project later.

Wah!!!!! so irritating!!!! i cannot take it anymore
No No No!!! to all your questions, my answer is
NO!!! N plus O equals NO. Im sick and tired of you
as well as you are sick and tired of me!!
You do not seem to understand me at all,
and how the hell do you expect me to understand
you??? in fact, spare me the details, i do not think
i even care anymore. So lets not care about each
other.
I thought that maybe since im all grown up,
you would understand me, but no, you don't
and you do not even put any effort to ask me
whther how i am??, have i eaten??, do you need
help?? and that you will be there for me.
thats your responsibility. I noe that you have other
commitments, but just because your tired and you
have no time, you can't possibly push everything to
me!! you scream and shout like there's no care in
the world. At that moment i.. i ..i wish i was deaf.
And when i do it, im wrong, and when i don't im in
the wrong too. Demoralized. Thats how i feel.
I have problems everywhere and at every corner.
I dun care anymore, im just going to go thru tis till
its time... yes the time...im waiting..till everything is
goin to be back like normal. when it comes, i will
then be able to either look back and laugh at myself
and realise that life is not tat bad OR that i should
move on..n nvr think of this. i cant afford to sit dwn
in front of the comp feeling like this everynight.
To my bro, thank u!! no im not stressed. I just need
to let go, let all the feelings out, before i suddenly
drop dead because all the negative feelings are stuck
in me. i will msg u often then! p.s dun worry, im
perfectly fine!!

its funny to see how ppl actually cope with stress,
with all the funny things they do. let me end this
entry with a poem.

Not waving but Drowning

Nobody heard him, the dead man.
But still he lay moaning.
I was much further out than you thought
And not waving but drowning

Poor chap, he always loved larking
And now he's dead
It must have been too cold for him his heart gave away
they said.

Oh, no no no, it was too cold always
(Still the dead one lay moaning)
I was much too far out all my life
And not waving but drowning.

Stevie Smith

A whole day of project!!

Suddenly project seems so time consuming
to me. Yeah i noe it does! But you never
noe how chime it is, and how difficult it is
when you have so much to do and so little
time.

I have absolutely no time. A friend has once
said to me. " Do not let time control you, YOU
control the time". Words that really got me
thinking. For the whole of my life that i remember,
i tink i have let time control me instead vice versa.

But its true isnt it?? How can you do so many
things, everything when you have a limited amount
of time?? How can you savour and appreciate
the little things that happen in life when you want
fast, convenient and fun all at the same time??

Im so tired already, i do not think i can run again
and follow time anymore. And guess what??
I have like a pretty exhausting week ahead of me.
Tomorrow morning, our grp is meeting our FAOM
lctr, then next stop, MTOOLs lctr. Meeting, n
finally dearie old Rock Climbing.

Friday!! hand in MIntel, meeting and Arts app lct.
Sat, project project all the way......
Sunday...a whole day of project once again.

saaDiaH
still 20.Libra.blue.
loves-.butterflies.collecting pretty notebooks.foreign films.fairies.kids.magic.chEEse fries.raisins.colourful envelopes.glitter.pinics.late night feast.


happiness everyday.more family gatherings.more climber's reunions.driving license.visit beautiful Turkey.travelling.holiday at lovely beaches.to further my studies.a house of my own.a miracle.



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